CMA Music Festival is on.

It's been a while. This summer was amazing. Tomorrow is the first day of September. Some things that are gonna happen in September:

1) Pumpkin Spice is back at Starbucks. First thing I'll do tomorrow is get a well-missed PS latte.

2) Paint my room. Either a pale purple or mossy green.

3) Make a trip to socal to visit my girls and catch a UCI women's vball and/or men's soccer game.

4) Finish up PT applications by end of the month. Oh man can't wait to be free.

5) Take GRE's on the 12th. So sick of quantitative comparisons and vocab.

6) Hopefully get a job. Keep getting calls for interviews but can't work cause of school -_-

7) Get straight A's at Chabot.

8) Run the Union City 10k on the 13th

9) Hike Mission and visit Napa for wine tasting with the girls

10) GET RIGHT.

Summer

We're leaving for Tahoe in the morning and I haven't even started packing yet. My room is a mess because I moved back 2 days ago and all my shit is just spread out everywhere.

In other news, LAKERS ARE ONCE AGAIN NBA CHAMPS. It's been a long 7 years. Now there's gonna be even more haters. Oh well. Kobe and Fish have 4 and Phil has 10.

Graduation was bittersweet. It feels good to be done with college but I'm gonna miss my girls. I'm not gonna miss most of the socal bitches, but I will miss my bitches. I'll visit soon though.

I would post pictures but I'm too lazy and I should probably go pack.

Oh yea, I love my palm pre.

Letting Go

Last night wasn't pretty but definitely what I needed.

The first cut is the deepest. There's no way around that. So let it heal in its own time. Once it does, the scar will always be there, but accept it for what it is and move on.

All At Once

10 more days until graduation. We picked up our cap and gowns yesterday. It didn't seem real until then. Let's just say I've already checked out of school. Final today. About to start studying after this. Lab report due and one more final on Monday and then I'll be done.

NBA finals start tomorrow! Lakers in 6. For sure at least 5. Maybe 7. Either way, very excited. Tahoe with my mom's side in 2 weeks. We haven't had a huge family vacay in so long. Love them more than anything.

My grandma's surgery went fine but they had to alter it so it'll take longer for her to heal. This means she'll have to be in the hospital longer, which means she might miss my graduation cause she'll be too weak. I really wanted her to be here, but as long as she's okay, no worries. Wish my grandpa could have been here.

Pohia

What pohia means:

Unstoppable

I called my grandma the other day and according to my dad, it made her day. I get to see her next week when she comes down south for a visit. She's also the only other person other than my parents and sisters that is coming to my graduation next month. She is seriously the strongest woman I know. She's been through it all, including cancer. I don't really get to see or talk to her much...but I'm definitely going to call her more often. My dad was telling me that according to her bloodwork and the doctors, it's not looking good. Oh don't get me wrong, she'd fight it with all she has, but everyone has to be prepared for the worse. I made the mistake of not making the most of the time I had with my grandpa when he was alive. I'm NOT going to make that same mistake with her. Shit I'm crying. Good night.

Things People Say

Supwitit. It's been a minute so I thought I'd post an entry. Life is goooood.

• The weather has been amazing to say the least.
• I love all my classes!
• Graduation is in less than 2 months.
• Taylor Swift next month!
• Tahoe with my favorite cousins to start off the summer.
• I finally went back to CHOC.
• Sports Med is fine and dandy.
• Men's Volleyball AND Baseball are ranked #1 in the nation!
• Lakers are smashin', but no surprise there.
• My tanlines are once again looking like underwear.

Anyway, listen here Babygirl. I know it sucks right now. But let me tell you how it goes. First you're sad AND mad. Just all these emotions and it's like you don't know what to do with them. So let 'em out. Don't be ashamed. Keep it bottled in and it'll be worse later on. Okay so then you get sick of being sad and now you're just mad. After you're pissed for a while, you realize that it's a waste of time. So then you get sad again. Go through the motions. Feel what your heart wants you to feel. Cause once that's all said and done, you're stronger. You're able to look back on everything and accept it for what it was and what it is. It DOES get better in time. You just have to let it.

Today: laundry. gym. training room. maybe baseball game. pool. groceries. car wash. study. Round 1 Game 2!